I’ve tried to write this piece on Pride about a dozen times. When I first started to write it, I thought it would be easy to just describe the road to the Pride I feel and how I have become more comfortable with expressing who I am, openly and honestly.
But as I started writing, I came to a startling realization: I still struggle with the idea of Pride and that it is so much more complex than just proclaiming who I am and living as that person. Pride isn’t just a feeling, it is an action and a process that I have to work at every single day. I am confronted daily with the choice to stand up proud or to shrivel into the background, passing as a straight woman when I am neither.
AJ Hadigan (they/them/their) is a 45-year-old gender retired, pansexual living in upstate NY. They have a bachelor’s degree in psychology from the University of Iowa and a Master’s Degree in Transpersonal Psychology from Sophia University. As a writer, musician, psychologist, and runner, they like to combine personal narrative, poetry, music, and body awareness into their work. AJ believes that telling our stories and being true to ourselves can save us and the world, and wants to use their writing to help others find their courage.