Media Review

Bad Queer

And maybe in a year, I will not feel like a bad queer

Adult Mom, “Survival”

 

Autostraddle “To L and Back”

About 6 months ago, I was listening to my favorite queer podcast (Buffering the Vampire Slayer, which I’ve written about here), when Kristin Russo announced she would be co-hosting season one of my soon-to-be other favorite queer podcast, To L and Back, in which Riese Bernard (co-founder of the site for and by queer women, Autostraddle) and Russo discuss every episode of the infamous lesbian Showtime series everyone loves to hate— The L Word. 

As I cued up the first episode, I was unprepared for how swiftly I was yanked back to the blossoming of my own queer sexuality at 19 years old, over a decade ago. 

 

 

 

I first started watching The L Word when I was still living at home. No one recommended it to me. I had no openly queer friends. I had no cable. But I did have a video store within walking distance of my house. I have no idea what moved me to rent the first season on DVD, but I’m lucky I did. 

At the beginning of my To L and Back binging, I had very little memory of The L Word’s specific characters, story arcs, episodes, or seasons. I only watched it once. I remember feeling that, lesbians aside, the show wasn’t very good.

The L Word, Season 3, Episode “Lost Weekend”

But I do remember watching the pilot, watching two women have sex for the first time, and thinking…this is hot! I really like this. I really want this.

It was such a subtle switch for me. I’d gone through my adolescence and early sexual experiences assuming I was straight, because I really didn’t think there was any other option. (Thank you, compulsory heterosexuality) Despite growing up in the Bay Area, I lived in a small island-town attending high school in the early 2000’s. Not long ago, but it could have been eons compared to the growth in LGBTQIA+ cultural visibility that has taken place in the past 20 years. (Never enough) I had no role models, and no community.

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I had TV. I had a lesbian-softcore-porn-soap-opera. Without which it may have taken me much much longer to begin my conscious queer journey.

Since then, I haven’t thought much about the little show that first raised my pulse and made my blood rush into a host of unexpected crevasses. To L and Back returned me to the inciting incident of my queerness and made me ask myself, why haven’t I been back to visit this beat until now?

The Shelf: Episodes 25 and 26

Welcome back to The Shelf, a film review podcast about the physical media we carry with us. This week, Nic and Hannah bring you the thrilling final two episodes of season one. We’re going on break, but will be back in March for your listening pleasure!

In episode 25, Nic and Hannah watched Spike Jonze’s academy-award-winning-cinematic-film-of-the-cinema, Her. Join us as we discuss lighting, color, costumes, set designs, scores, emotions, themes, and Jackass.

You can access the episode here: The Shelf, Episode 25: Her

 

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In episode 26, Nic and Hannah descend into madness with Ari Aster’s horror hit, Hereditary. If you are strong of spirit and pure of heart, join them. If you want. No pressure. Seriously it is such a long episode.

Content Warning: This episode discusses topics of trauma, mental illness, suicide, and violence. 

Nic and Hannah reference two articles during this episode. If you’re interested in Sasha Geffen’s full take, you can find their article here: “Trans Horror Stories and Society’s Fear of the Transmasculine Body”

You can also find Willow Maclay and Caden Gardner’s blog here: “Body Talk: Conversations on Transgender Cinema”

 

The Shelf: Episode 24

Welcome back to The Shelf, a film review podcast about the physical media we carry with us. This week we bring you a very special episode! A physical media experience like no other! Nic and Hannah watched Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone IN SYNC with Brad Neely’s magnificent audio track companion, Wizard People, Dear Reader. Join your friends as they discuss their relationship to the Destroyer of Worlds— Harry Potter, do bad impressions of funny people, and wax nostalgia over Wizard Rock and Puppet Pals. 

If you’re having trouble loading in this browser, you can also access the episode externally here: The Shelf, Episode 24: Wizard People, Dear Reader (Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone)

 

The Shelf: Episode 23

Welcome back to The Shelf, a film review podcast about the physical media we carry with us. Are you part of the proletariat class? Are you tired of the bourgeoisie pigs keeping you down? Are you ready to start a revolution? Then join Nic and Hannah this week as they watch the film The Trotsky, and learn everything you didn’t (or did) already know about the Marxist theorist and Soviet revolutionary— Leon Trotsky.

If you’re having trouble loading in this browser, you can also access the episode externally here: The Shelf, Episode 23: The Trotsky

 

The Shelf: Episode 22

Welcome back to The Shelf, a film review podcast about the physical media we carry with us. Where do dreams go to die? Tucson, Arizona! This week, Nic and Hannah watched the Steve Coogan comedy Hamlet 2, an “inspirational teacher movie” parody that’s cuckoo-bananas fun for the whole family!

If you’re having trouble loading in this browser, you can also access the episode externally here: The Shelf, Episode 22: Hamlet 2

 

The Shelf: Episode 21

Welcome back to The Shelf, a film review podcast about the physical media we carry with us. It’s football Sunday ya’ll! And what better way to celebrate than by watching the romantic, melancholy, indie film The Go-Getter?! Nic and Hannah come along for the ride with Mercer, a sad sweet boy on a meandering road trip, as he copes with loss and finds unexpected love.

If you’re having trouble loading in this browser, you can also access the episode externally here: The Shelf, Episode 21: The Go-Getter

 

 

The Shelf: Episode 20

Welcome back to The Shelf, a film review podcast about the physical media we carry with us. This week Nic and Hannah watched the beloved, meta, sci-fi-movie-adventure Galaxy Quest! Help them figure out, is Patrick Stewart the same as Spock? Can Sigourney Weaver rap? And how cute is Giles’ haircut?

If you’re having trouble loading in this browser, you can also access the episode externally here: The Shelf, Episode 20: Galaxy Quest

 

The Shelf: Episode 19

Welcome back to The Shelf, a film review podcast about the physical media we carry with us. This week, Nic and Hannah discuss the seminal 1980’s high school comedy Fast Times at Ridgemont High. Does this movie hold up? Is it cool to be a method actor? Does everyone think this movie is that movie where Matthew McConaughey says that thing he says? What’s the deal with smoking in movie theaters? Find out the answers to these questions and more on this episode of The Shelf!

If you’re having trouble loading in this browser, you can also access the episode externally here: The Shelf, Episode 19: Fast Times At Ridgemont High

The Shelf: Episode 18

Welcome back to The Shelf, a film review podcast about the physical media we carry with us. Join Nic and Hannah as they explore the alien world of Ygaam on this weeks episode, Fantastic Planet. Together they discuss the strange nature of dressing pets like people, the strength of allegory, psychedelic French rock, and weird statues.

If you’re having trouble loading in this browser, you can also access the episode externally here: The Shelf, Episode 18: Fantastic Planet

The Shelf: Episode 17

Welcome back to The Shelf, a film review podcast about the physical media we carry with us. Remember high school? Oh, you blocked it out? Yeah, we did too.  Join Nic and Hannah as they discuss the light-hearted (?) adaptation of Hawthorne’s The Scarlet Letter–  Easy A.

If you’re having trouble loading in this browser, you can also access the episode externally here: The Shelf, Episode 17: Easy A